Prompt 12 is 'The Box: You are the experiment: What situation in your Migraine/Headache Disorders treatment has made you feel most like a
guinea pig or lab rat?'
I have always hated trial and error. In primary school maths we’d have these puzzles where we’d have to try out different numbers until we get the right combination and I always found them so boring and pointless. I mean, that’s hardly a practical way to get the answer, right?
So now it’s a weird twist of fate that I seem to be doing the exact same thing, except now with medicines. At least numbers were pretty harmless; it’s a pity the same can’t be said for drugs. Medicines for migraine are tricky in that no one can say, ‘Here, this will definitely work,’ so the only way to move forward is to try some medicines out that have worked for other people and see what happens from there. It’s like I’m playing trial and error with my body, and I hated trial and error enough just on principle when it was a no risk thing with numbers.
So my answer to this prompt is simple: ALL OF IT.
Everything has been, ‘try this and when you come back tell me if it worked’. And then it hasn’t worked so I get told to try something else and come back later. It’s really quite frustrating. The fact that the risks of trying the medicines, even if they’re small, exist, make it even worse. But as long as there is a chance of an improvement I have to try it out even if I don't like it.