Hi Uni, I either love or hate you... or both... anyway, I think I'll stick around you for a bit more than I originally planned...
It's been an interesting day. In between going to the beach and celebrating my dad's birthday it's been rather eventful. But all that aside, today was the day I got the email saying I've been accepted into the French Diploma at my university.
I'd been waiting for confirmation one way or another since just before Christmas last year when my managing faculty approved and sent my application to the next stage. And now that I know I've gotten it for sure, and even though I made up my mind about it months ago, it's still a little intimidating.
The Diploma adds another year to my degree. I'll be at uni for 6 years just doing undergraduate stuff. It's a bit weird to think that I'll still be studying when quite a few friends will have jobs in the 'real world'. It also means I'll spend the same amount of time doing my undergraduate degrees and diploma that I did in high school. High school seemed like a very long time, and I suppose it was a huge chunk of my life, and I can't help wondering if this will be the same.
I'm not sure if I can deal with five more years like last year. It was so wonderfully fascinating and yet so utterly draining at the same time. I think I'm addicted to learning; even when I am completely drained and should probably be resting I can't help looking into my textbook and learning one more thing. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing that I love my subjects so much that I'd literally study myself to exhaustion but that's what happened some days. I'd be really tired but the alternative is doing nothing on the bus home so I start reading my textbook and get fascinated by some and have the need to know everything about it. Learning a language might even be good for me. It's mostly rote learning so more relaxing for the brain that the other stuff I do.
I'm not sure how I feel about finally knowing that I'm doing French next semester, but I've decided to try it and hopefully it all works out!
It's a new year, and a chance for a new start. I'm determined for this year to be different, to be better. That doesn't mean that 2013 wasn't an alright year, it necessary and full of new experiences and life lessons, but it certainly had a lot of room for improvement.
2013 was a year of new things. I was finally able to study the things I wanted to study and nothing else. I met lots of new people and made quite a few new friends. I found a strength in myself I never knew I had. And most importantly, I stopped being frustrated at all that is wrong and out of my control, and started focusing on the things I can improve and succeed in.
As this new year starts, suddenly there is so much more enthusiasm and motivation for making changes in my life for the better. People normally make new years resolutions, but I think I'll just name one area in my life I want to focus on improving. And with no contest, it would have to be my health. I think it's time to take it more seriously. To make sure I always take my medicine, even if I don't want to. To finally make that appointment that I've been putting off for four months. I need to tell more people about what's happening so I have the option of talking to people when I start wondering what the point of trying is, because nothing is changing. I need to consciously commit to changing my life for the better in all ways, by sleeping regularly, eating the right foods and adding a bit of exercise to every day because every time I've tried doing that before I stop doing it after a week or even a few days. I need to take time to relax every day so that I don't get too stressed by everyday life. Isn't it funny how one word, health, can involve so many different things and more.
It's going to take so much willpower and strength to actually follow this through, and I have no idea if I actually can. But a new year somehow brings new hope and determination, and right now it all seems possible and I sincerely hope that it is.