This prompt is: 'Pretty Woman: What do you do to look good when you feel like crap?'. So it was strange when one day I felt the impulse to put some make-up on, just before going out. But not going out, going out, but just going out of the house to go grocery shopping with my mum. It was a day when I didn't just feel bad, I felt fragile and somehow putting on make-up helped make me less fragile, allowing me to go out into the real world without ‘breaking’. In general though, I do nothing. I usually feel well enough to pass for normal, and then if I don’t people have stereotyped me as ‘quiet’ anyway. It’s funny how much difference a smile and a bit of a laugh at whatever’s happening can make in convincing everyone around you everything’s fine. One example is when I went to see Les Miserables with three friends. The ending made me and one other friend cry. The two friends who did not shed a tear throughout the whole thing (how could they!) were good-naturedly teasing the one friend who did cry about crying at the end but didn’t seem to notice that I’d been crying in the slightest. All I did was smile, laugh a bit at the teasing and nobody looked twice at me. Now, that’s not a serious example but I have used this before in other situations and it seemed to work as well. People tend to want to believe the best to be true. I guess looking good doesn't have such a high place on my priority list. Like sure, I want to look nice enough, but I don't want to go to too much trouble, especially when I'm not feeling well.
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‘When you walk through a storm Hold your head up high And don't be afraid of the dark At the end of the storm There's a golden sky And the sweet silver song of the lark Walk on, through the wind Walk on, through the rain Though your dreams be tossed and blown Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart And you'll never walk alone You'll never walk alone’ - You’ll Never Walk Alone, Carousel Prompt 5 says ‘Carousel: You'll Never Walk Alone’, which happens to be the name of a truly amazing song. I did this song for a bit in singing and immediately feel in love with it. It’s perfect in every way. It’s not just that the melody is beautiful in the simplest possible way. It’s the lyrics as well. But I’m guessing this prompt is supposed to be about the meaning of the song, not a rant about how wonderful the song is so I’d better stop praising it. I can never say that I walk alone. I have a really supportive family and my friends are really great people. I’m not sure how that happened… my sister can’t say the same… but it’s really quite awesome :D I don't know if my friends know what difference a simple conversation can make some days. I hope they do, but then is a conversation normally a big deal? Sometimes I wonde I tried to find a youtube version of this song that I completely liked, and I couldn't but this one comes pretty close. The beginning's a bit too showy-offy for my taste but it gets good ones the singing starts. And when I say good I mean really good. Prompt 4 is 'Finding Nemo: "Just keep swimming": How do you keep going in life when Migraine or another Headache Disorder deals you a difficult set back?'.
In short, I have no idea. Probably by exploiting my natural ability to be extremely stubborn. It's really quite a great asset. To tell you the truth, I chose this prompt purely because of that video, not because I had any particular insight into this topic. But I chose it, so I guess I should try to think of something to say. I guess I live my life by the philosophy, 'it's okay to lose the battle, as long as it isn't the war'. If something doesn't go the way I would like, I don't think of it as failing, I think of it as a tactical retreat. Then, because of the whole stubbornness thing, I generally start plotting how to try to make it work again quite soon after. That's not to say that it doesn't annoy me when things go wrong. It really does, sometimes more than other times depending on my mood. But in the end there's no point in stressing about it and it's best to use my energy in making a contingency plan. So to quote Dory: 'When life gets you down do you wanna know what you've gotta do? Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.' Dory is a wise fish. As I wrote earlier I'm picking and choosing my prompts due to exams, and the one I'm choosing first is 'The Hunger Games: "Happy Hunger Games, and may the odds be ever in your favor": What healthy habits have you adopted to put the odds of better Migraine & Headache Disorders management in your favor?'
For some reason, I started answering this prompt, and then suddenly I had an idea for a fanfic. It may be a bit morbid of me, but I started wondering how having migraine would affect a tribute in the Hunger Games. Could it ever be considered a strength or would it only be a weakness? Anyway, to explore it I'm writing a fanfic. It's probably weird, but now I'm curious and I can't help but wonder. If anyone's interested you'll find it here. Now back to the prompt. It's actually surprised me how much my habits have changed because of migraine. I sleep way more than I used to because I can't stand not to. I feel the need to drink water way more than I used to, so I've started carrying a drink bottle with me wherever I go, even for a short car ride. My food choices have changed ever so slightly. I try to stay away from MSG since I'm completely sure it's affecting me negatively in some way but it's hard to know what's in anything these days. It's not much, but I guess it's better than nothing, and I'm always trying to get a little bit healthier in an attempt to make my life just a little bit better. When I spend ages working on (and failing) to solve a question in maths: Maths you are stupid, I hate you and I never want to see you again.
When the same thing happens in physics: Physics, it's not your fault I don't understand your mystic ways, I still love you. And I have to major in both of them... America has a National Migraine and Headache Awareness Month. Which I think is pretty cool. And the Blog Challenge is movie themed! So I've decided that even though June is also exam month I'll participate in a select few prompts (a.k.a the ones I think sound most familiar/coolest).
The thing with being an engineering student is that your escapades around the campus start being the ones that entertain everyone else. I mean, only one out of four of my subjects are engineering and already I've got quite a few weird stories to tell. The thing with being penniless students with no proper equipment is that we have to improvise. And sometimes that looks weird. So if you had happened to be walking by a certain stairway in the engineering area of campus you may have been met with a strange sight. My group wanted to measure the spring constant of a spring which involves putting weight on one end on the spring and measuring how far it stretches. Except all we had to use was the stuff in our houses so we brought a bucket, measuring cup and some string. So now we had to tie the top end of the spring onto something. We looked around, and the only thing we could see was the stairs. We spent a good half an hour pouring water into a bucket tied to a spring tied to stairs and taking measurements. Plenty of people saw us, some people even went up those stairs, and didn’t even react to what we were doing. Makes me wonder what counts as weird in the engineering faculty. The reason we needed this spring constant was for our project which was tennis ball flinger, which needed to fling a tennis ball 10 metres so it would hit a target 1.5 metres off the ground. So obviously we could not test this thing inside, which called for more public demonstrations of undergrad engineering. Like, using a footpath as a firing range. Because obviously footpaths are just waiting to be made into firing ranges. Before you think it’s just my group that’s weird, it’s not just us! To date I have witnessed the civil engineering kids carrying around LOTS of long sticks made out of newspaper and sticky tape (to make into mini bridges of course) and some aerospace eng people throwing paper gliders in the foyer of one of the science lecture theatres. So that might be why when my tennis ball flinging machine group was carrying our machine along with a 12 litre container of water to the testing site, people asked questions and looked at us weirdly around most of campus but when we got to the eng section of campus, no one really cared except to comment that it looked cool. Oh and also our lecturer shows us videos like this one: Ok, I've got to confess, every time my astronomy lecturer say the word 'Uranus' in lecture, I get the giggles.
There are two ways (that I'm aware of) to pronounce the word Uranus. The kinda weird but less entertaining Uran-us, or the extremely hilarious Ur-anus which sounds almost exactly 'your anus'. The entertainment value should be obvious. Please allow your mind to interpret these the wrong way: Uranus is a gas giant. So, how was Uranus discovered? Uranus has quite a cold surface... If we were to take a spaceship into Uranus... (okay so it was actually Jupiter, but it's a lot more entertaining with Uranus) Uranus is gaseous. I know it's really quite immature but at least I have fun :D I got this idea during an astronomy lecture a few weeks ago but it wasn't a big enough idea for a story so I decided to have a go at drawing a comic. Please ignore my bad drawing skills, it's never been my strong point.
I've been thinking recently whether to take up music a bit more seriously. As in, doing a Diploma of Music type of seriously. Pros of doing the Diploma: it would be awesome. Cons of doing the Diploma: it would take my already long 5 year degree and turn it into a 6 year one. That's essentially how long I spent in high school.
I'm really quite torn. Is it worth spending an extra year at uni to do something that I probably won't ever use? I'll regret it if I don't, but if 6 years is too long and I get bored of doing everything I'd regret doing the Diploma more. I suppose it isn't that important a dilemma but I really want to take full advantage of all the opportunities I have during uni. Speaking of opportunities during uni, I'm also considering a semester abroad but if I do that I probably won't be able to do the Music Diploma. Decisions, decisions... |